Goal #1

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Although I set my goals above the norm, I do it because it makes you work twice as hard for something. That is why I intend to keep this blog going for a long time with the hope of achieving my goal. Nothing is easy in this world, and I found that out the hard way like I mentioned in my gambling post. I had reached a peak of money, something that I never thought was possible. But, I regret that peak because I let greed get the better of me. It was similar to that of Golem and the ring from Lord of The Rings. But, I learned my lesson, and I will never let something like that happen to me ever again. Of course I want money, but I’m a different person than most. I wouldn’t use a million dollars to buy a car, or a house, etc… I’d love to start up a business helping out people, and I know i’d be good at it. I am currently in college to be a social worker, so I’m be ready to make a difference. I’d also not only put most of the money away in the bank, but I’d love to treat my family. Perhaps, a vacation to repay them for all the good times they have provided me. It be nice to have that kind of money, and I’m hoping that this blog will one day be a success, and I can inspire others to believe that they can achieve the impossible. 

My First Goal: To earn 11,000 within a four months. That will pay for my tuition, which would be wonderful. I love the college I’m going to but it’s a lot of money, especially in this economic climate. A semester’s worth covered, would probably be life changing. I’m going to have to figure out more idea’s soon on how to achieve this mark, but I already got my eyes set on doing it. 


Million Dollar Quest Idea #2

Well my first idea is already out there, and so far no luck. But, that’s alright because everything takes time, just like getting views on this blog.


My second idea is to make a T-Shirt with the possibility of making more if my first design is even worthwhile to people. Now I’ve already made the design, and it’s a rather simple one. It’s also something humorous, In which I like to do. I actually really enjoy it, but I’m not the one whom buys it. Anyways, you can see the design above, as well as use the RSS links on the sidebar or click the below widget to get to my store. The shirt is $25, a little more than I expected, and I’d only make $5 dollars per shirt. I’d rather sell it for way cheaper, and will be looking at other options in the future.  


Fear, is it a weak emotion or can it be beneficial? The debate about that is almost non-existent but I often find myself thinking about things like this. I do not think it’s a weak emotion because some things in this world you need to be fearful of. As we know, not everything is good out there, and sometimes being fearful of something provides us a reassurance of safety. I also believe fear can turn into a strength, as we try later on to overcome the obstacle we face. I can personally say, I definitely am fearful of things. It’s not a weakness, it’s just being a human. And these fears I have, only strengthen me later on, as I break their barriers. I remember when I was younger, I was terrified of highs. But, that meant not enjoying amusement parks, and roller coasters. Although the fear is still there, I just put my big boy pants on, and I do every roller coaster at an amusement park. It’s all about enjoying something, and not letting whatever fear you have get in the way. 

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Also I believe being fearful of things often makes you think about stuff, and gives you something to strive for. What I’m implying is that say I fear being rejected. It’s a totally normal fear to have, and I think you really need to talk things over with yourself about issues like this. As far as rejection, you need to realize that everyone gets rejected at some point in a day. It’s how you take that rejection, and overcome it is what matters. Although this is my perspective on the matter, I truly believe that 20 seconds of insane courage is all you need. As long as you pour your heart into whatever you fear, there’s nothing that can deny you. 

I will say this though, do not live your life in complete fear. Like I said before, it’s not a weak emotion, it’s just being human. But, to completely shun yourself, and not attempt to overcome your fears, is not the right way to live. Of course, this is me speaking, and everyone has their own perspective. But, being a human and going through the daily grind as well, I feel as if my opinion does embark some truths. Well, I did not wish to turn this into a ramble, but I will leave you this last remark. Fear is only a weak emotion if you make it one. 


First off, Happy New Year to everybody, and I wish everyone the best. May this year be full of life for you! 

Author: Holger Thölking

Now to my blog topic, Anger. I often feel this emotion daily, and not because someone bothers me or anything, but instead the way some lives close to me panned out. Now, there is no one to blame because that’s life, and death comes with the territory. But, I feel angered that good people, people that I love, went too soon. And, just to clarify, I am not angry person at all. This emotion is just simply something that is internal. It doesn’t effect me as much externally, but it certainly hits my core. To be totally truthful, I’ve never enjoyed my birthday either because those I loved either died around my birthday, or actually on it. I always feel like I’m holding myself back from being truly happy too because I know that I shouldn’t be harping on this, but the anger inside, is too much to fight away. It’s like a demon inside of me that won’t let me go, as if I signed some contract in which I have to serve for life. 

I’m not quite sure though, how I can ever put this issue to the side. It’s at the point where it not only is a daily emotion that I go through, but it’s effected other things. My faith for one, has all but been lost as a result. I can also say pain, and tears have become something of rarity. I’ve gotten to the point on occasions where I can say I’ve become numb. I’m actually one of those guys too that don’t mind expressing their emotions. It doesn’t make you feminine to express yourself, like the majority of the world might think. You are a human, and humans express themselves. Gender should never be an issue because I can tell that when you express your emotions, it’s such a relief. You clear the air, and feel much better. It’s also just being real, and not fake. I might be tailing off my blog topic at hand, but I think you got the gist. I’ll figure something out one day to try and put this in the past, but it’s hard not be angry when you see a family photo, and half are not even around anymore. 

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